Can I call it rap...Rapish maybe?

Hey Guys! Angie kinda gave me the courage to share this with all of you. Idk what it would be classified...it is kinda a "rap" that I made. I do apologize for the length...I didn't realize that it was that long. If you are able to get all the way thru it...let me know what you think.

Life has thrown me a few curve balls
But you're nvr to far to hear my calls
I look back on who I was
The memory leaves a bitter taste Cuz
Who I used to be is not who I am
Who I used to be seethed hate and anger
Lived and savoured pain
Enjoyed when the rain
fell on everyone's Parade
The effect was a cascading one
I always let my darker side win
If I had a look-alike- I would've been the evil twin

As I recall I was nothing special
I hated everything about myself
Wished someone would just put me back on the shelf
I was a book not worth Reading
Just depression and hate feeling
Hurt and Scared I pushed others out
voices filled me with self-doubt
More times than i'd care to count
One day it all changed

You came along
and acted like I belonged
you blew the dust off my cover
opened my pages and actually began to hover
Deeper and deeper you read
Gently peeling away the pages of my story
Never had someone show soo much interest
you fingers ran down the pages
Tracing the words; going thru the ages
Before I realized it, you were encouraging
me to stop all my raging

And begin to be the mast of my own Story
To steer my own ship
To pick up a pen and decide my trip
You helped me to see my potential
You showed me I didn't have to let others control my future.
I began to suture
old hurts and soars
reaching my very core
You didn't even hesitate to p[en the door
Still surprises me that

you find this ol' book of interest
but instead of putting it to rest
you display me on your night stand
why? why do you find me such an interesting read
How am I different from anyother book?
Why continue to look?
The words become smeared
the deeper you go
stain and shrivled from long nights spent in tears
I toss you the keys
But whatever you do...please
tred carefully

I begin to draw you into my story
Soon you feel apart of the fantasy
it's nothing fancy

I constant fight nature
to be more mature
to open up and share
to show others how much I care
I am not shoe I used to be
But will others ever see

Very nice Hawk. I'm a fan of rap, and I'd be interested to hear that put with music.

Nice. It for a special someone i take it?

Not so much rap, more funk I think. What it really reminds me of: the Asteroid Galaxy Tour. Weird scifi name for a cool singer and her crew:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXKEQB5Fzao

Cool! thanks guys!

eehhh they were someone special yesh!

Were? As in no longer? I'm sorry hawky. : (

I'm working on being a psychologist so if you need someone to talk to, i'm here for you. This actually goes for anyone that needs it. (WARNIGNG: I'm only a first year college student but i have been through clinical depression and have been to a psychiatrist so i at least somewhat know what i'm doing, but if i suggest you see a real one, do it!!!)

Hahhahahahaa!! Ya....once you got into my mind....you would go crazy ...the things contained with in......they are not for others to see for others wouldn't be able to withstand it...or coop. It is stuff that no one should have to see or hear in their life times.

Thanks Sev That is a good major

Hawk wrote:Hahhahahahaa!! Ya....once you got into my mind....you would go crazy ...the things contained with in......they are not for others to see for others wouldn't be able to withstand it...or coop. It is stuff that no one should have to see or hear in their life times.

i think ill give it a go. Im already insane, cant get any lower then i am

Hawk wrote:Hahhahahahaa!! Ya....once you got into my mind....you would go crazy ...the things contained with in......they are not for others to see for others wouldn't be able to withstand it...or coop. It is stuff that no one should have to see or hear in their life times.

Thanks Sev That is a good major

Hawk, i guarantee i've gone through hell and back, maybe even worse stuff than you. Nothing phases me anymore.

Nothing ever hurt so much
Missing your touch
And the sound of your voice
It wasn’t my choice

When it’s all said and done
Will anyone bother to notice

An emptiness inside
Were you used to reside
Only thing left is pain
And tears that flow like rain

When it’s all said and done
Will anyone bother to notice

I stand here on the edge
Looking over the ledge
In an instant, a flash
It could all be over in a crash

When it’s all said and done
Will anyone bother to notice

The blackness threatens to swallow me up
While I continue to drink from this cup
Feelings always hidden from the outside
People never seem to make it inside

When it’s all said and done
Will anyone bother to notice

Emotional pain hurts so much more
Physical pain only distracts but it remains at the core
When it’s all said and done
Will anyone bother to notice

geez hawk, u make me sad for u sometimes

i hope the tempo of the rap goes back up at some point

Bad things happen to people. I think that knowledge is behind one of my favorite quotations:

Be kind for everyone you meet is fighting a great battle.

It's been attributed to Plato, Philo, a Scottish preacher, and even a rock group. Both the Christians and the Buddhists claim it. So best just say "Anonymous."

Haw it okay Angie! I am doing much better tonight than I was lasst night when I wrote this.....

At the thought of losing you my heart skips beats
How can I look at these empty seats
Around me and feel the same way
No, it’s not going to be okay
There is nothing more to say

I try to process, try to think
Standing here on the brink
But I can’t find the missing link
You are nowhere to be found
Our two hearts once bound
Are no longer sound

Here a glance, there a glance
Is there even a remote chance
That you could still be mine
There is no more walking the line
I do not have time
I’m tired of acting sublime

No more waiting around for a maybe
Pondering on what might be
It was probably all my fault that you left
I second guess every word and phrase
But all it seems to do is raise
More unanswered questions that gnaws
At ones mind and at one’s soul claws


Is there ever any hope
Will I ever find a way to cope
Or get used to your absence
I can no longer afford to ride the fence
Either all in or all out
No more time to pout